SLOW BUT STEADY

27hb.Muharram 1435H
5.04am
Bismillah.
Lokasi : Hospital Enche' Besar Hajah Khalsom

Ye, Ibu warded again .dah malam kedua disini. Saya sampai at around 2.30am tadi bersama Sulaiman by bus. Leganya bila nampak wajahnya lena tidur, Nora disampingnya....owh Alhamdulillah, Mak tidur bersandar ....thats an improvement, selalunya Mak terpaksa tidur duduk , and most of the time tak dapat nak bersandar. She stirred ,an hour or so later, complained of a headache. Nora tested her sugar, it was on the lower side, ...gave her a few pieces of oranges and kiwis, some warm water, two pieces of cream crackers dipped in JiaHor Isolated Soya Protein and pujuk her to stop eating for the meantime, picit kepala sikit and she continued her slumber till 5.30am when she was woken up for the usual blood tests.
Her legs dah tak bengkak langsung, besides hospital foods, sempat jugak selitkan Ceo Coffee 3-in-1 , madu and dates. Mak kata nurse kata Kit-Kats boleh amik during her hypo sugar crashes , when i asked about the mini kit-kat bars readily available on her side-table....nevertheless we did it with ajwa dates, honey, kiwis, oranges and 2 pieces of cream crackers . Alhamdulillah...these are uncomparable to chocolates, sweets or even glucose drinks as recommended by some,,,,,the difference lies in the kinds of sugars ....fructose vs sucrose....where the earlier is friendlier to our system.
She had a relatively good second night too.....hence she was discharged the very next day,..... to her dissappointment. Some how or other, she preferred not to go home....i could resonate with that.....going home also means chores and responsibilities 24/7.  ....ha ha.

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Isnin 2hb.November 2013
Home in Kampung Melayu
I was excited to try my hands on the insulin jab. I have never attempted to understand how to administer it before, because i don't like it. In fact i am against it. Apa nak buat....tuan badan nak ....
After having paid full attention on the much detailed demo by the pharmacist with loads of questions , we were ready !

• release pelan2, tak boleh sekali harung ,takut melimpah keluar

• put the needle right in, perpendicular to surface of body part

• dah habis masuk all contemt of the syringe, tunggu 3 saat, to make sure all stay in sebab bila tumpah, walaupun sikit, amount would be affected significantly. ...resulting in ineffectiveness in controlling the body sugar/

• take food half an hour after that, tunggu the insulin dah circulate thoroughly.

My dad took the honours of that 1st correct jab......oooops,.ooops..tumpah sikit, and jarum bent....ok now we know its not as easy as it looked. Alhamdulillah, that night mak was ok, besides a stress-triggered chest pain. ....we managed to pull through that. For her middle of the night snack,after confirming that it was due to a bit low sugar( by testing it with the alat),  she had 3 pieces of boled dates,2 grapes, a whole kiwi( oo she loves the kiwi) and 2 pieces of biscuiits with protein drink. Breakfast for the following morning was oats. The oats was prepared with my own recipe where i campak2 in whatever good stuff i could lay my hands on ......dates, raisins, honey, JiaHor Pollen, JiaHor Soya Protein. Beverage for the day : air halia, air rebusan goji, air kurma.  In addition,  she took colloidal silver and liquid magnesium and Yungkien Ganoderma sebiji,  sepatutnya 20 biji!

OATS FOR MAMA.

~ MAY ALLAH HEAL YOU FAST~

HIKMAHNYA PENYAKIT

Sabtu 30hb.November,2013.
25Muharram 1435H

Bismillah.....semoga bondaku dapat tidur nyenyak sehingga subuh. Ameen. Beliau didischarged semalam dan khabarnya she is not having a good time dirumah.  Semoga bonda rasa semangat dan bertenaga untuk mengerjakan solat fajr ...... .Ameen ya rabbal aalameen.
Berlalu 3 bulan sudah, kejerihan bonda renangi arus yang begitu mencabar dan berterusan menguji ketabahan beliau dari segi fizikal mahupun spiritual....Ya Allah ,sesungguh Kau Yang Maha Mengasihani ......limpahilah RahmatMu keatasnya, permudahilah hayatnya yang seada ni, tunjuklah bondaku jalanMu Yang Mustaqeem....ameen.
Aku berada disamping beliau pada Ahad, Isnin dan separuh hari Selasa minggu lepas di Hospital Enche' Besar Hajjah Khalsom . Rasanya seolah2 tubuhnya yang kian mengecil dan begitu longlai tu have had enough ....sesungguh Allah Maha Mengetahui . Moga Bonda ditingkatkan keimanannya dalam prosesMu ya Allah. Moga beliau diampuni segala dosa dari silam sehingga ke akhir hayatnya...ameen ya rabbal aalameen.

~ Ameen Ya Rabbal aalameen~

+HOSPITAL ENCHE' BESAR HAJJAH  KHALSOM

Mengimbas kembali.......
Setibanya kami di hospital (around zohor time) pada Ahad 24hb.Nov,2013, Nora kuberi pelepasan untuk pulang, she needs a break. Rancanganku sememangnya untuk terus bermalam sehingga time for me to leave , ie. the following Tuesday. Secara keseluruhan status kesihatanya memang tak menyenangkan, pada mata layman-ku, hatta. Tidurnya ber-ulam long painful and sleepless moments. Sangat menyayat hati....the way she sat up ,closed-eye ,to deep-breathe through the pains brings back memories of my girls during their labour. The only support i could come up with was a gentle stroke on where it hurt ( which is everywhere), read Quranic verses, selawat nabi ,interweaved with doa's to the Almighty.....besides coaching her on the breathing. Allah helps her.  Bezanya , in her case ,only Allah knows when each episode would end...
That night was hardly a restful time for her.She would sleep a short while, mostly not on her back.....rather she would lean forward on a propped-up pillow hugged close to her body and fall asleep that way . The layback posture is too much pressure for her pulmonary oedema ( water-filled lungs).
She was restless all through the night.

• nak buang air kecik ,kerapkali kerana she is on two kinds of diuretics with due respect to her oedema.
• her entire body was aching badly.....which i attribute to the many types of drugs she is on.
• she nak makan disebabkan 'gigil'
• sesak nafas 

The most challenging is bab makan : What to eat? and what not to eat ?
Malam tu mak woke me up around 3-4am . She felt 'menggigil' and nak something to eat, which was supposed to appease her self-presumed low-sugar syndrome. Being totally unfamiliar with this, i chose to offer a safe sugar source, ajwa dates ( one or two), which did not satisfy her pangs....she wants more fill, biscuits dunked in diabetic milk ( too sweet for me, i prayed that it was not synthetic white sugar or substitutes). She dropped off to sleep .

She woke up around Fajr time, and she 'gigil' for food lagi. Gigil gigil ni, jangan salah paham ye. She tak menggigil like people do when they are freezing cold, malah pada mata kasar saya, tak nampak pun any degree of shivering. ....Kali ni bila mak mintak more refills, i dared not follow her instincts anymore inspite of what seemed unbearable to her hunger .So I pergi to the nurses' station to seek help....alhamdulillah i did, for when they check her sugar level( which happens to be a compulsory procedure before doing whatever next thats needed to be done) , rupanya the sugar was a mind-boggling 30!! ps: The safe maximum sugar level for a person on insulin jabs is 9....or 10. Little did we know that 'menggigil-gigil' is a symptom for both extremes of the sugar ......hypo or hyper ( sugar crash or sugar spikes?) . An additional top up would be fatal.!

So, kalau menggigil which can easily be mistaken for lapar gula, hati2 ....1st thing 1st....andaikata memang gula tercatat amat rendah ,iaitu 4 kebawah apakah yang harus dibuat.? I don't know what you prefer......i would give 2 or 3 ajwa dates. Or honey.,or grapes perhaps..... as opposed to sweets, sugar or cordial drinks regardless . WHY?....sambil menyelam minum air ....Dates, honey and grapes will definitely bring the sugar up as needed in hypoglycaemic condition, and so will sweets, sugar and soda. TAPI, the second group of items are bad and damaging the body . So, if ada choice naikkan gula while benefitting health, why not opt for that.
What happens kalau gigil, tapi tup tup check gula, rupanya hyper ??? iaitu gula melambung tinggi!  Malangnya, lapar macamana pun, gigil macamana pun.....tak boleh makan apa2 dulu sehingga gula turun.Otherwise, gula akan terus naik!.....also can be fatal.

Date

Honey

How much nak top-up semasa hypo?
Terus terang, all these are new to me....I mean , handling a health chaos the drug way. Its all against my beliefs, and hence tak pernah nak ambil tau tentang the hows and whys of the related modi operandi as such....dah kene batang hidung sendiri , pasal bonda yg tercinta pilih jalan ni, got no choice but cepat2 telaah, bertanya , cuba dan tanya dan tanya dan tanya lagi pakar2 yang berkaitan.. Antara ilmu2 baru yang ku ceduk sambil menangguk dan mengayuh sampan sluggishly upstream.......ialah ; upon the onset of a 'hypo' episode , only one sweet or one date or one sweet drink to be given to patient . Bila saya tanya, what if that eeny weeny bit doesn't do its job ( highly unlikely) to calm the kegigilan, kelaparan? To my knowledge, my mom has been practising a continous eat-eat-eat-drink-drink .selagi tak berenti gigil......their answer is tak boleh puan!....nanti jadi hyper! Subhanallah....bila kita nak amalkan sesuatu yang tak natural, dan tak seiring dengan fitrah , sememangnya amat mengelirukan. Too little bahaya, too much bahaya.....cuba try barang2 saya....all natural.....terkurang ke terlebih ke, tak jadi hal major, tak merosakkan apa2 tak ada extreme roller-coastering sugar, blood pressure etc......dijamin a safe journey ,paling kurang.

Ya Allah shower us with your taufiq & hidayah....forgive us for all our sins......