30hb. Jun 2014 10.43pm
Bismillah .
Alhamdulillah , dah berlalu dua hari kita berpuasa . Moga kali ni lebih baik , malah moga yang terbaikk berbanding dengan mana2 Ramadan yang lepas lepas . Subhanallah bila di hitung-kira , dah 40 kali Ramadan aku lalui . .......Terkenang memori-memori manis berpuasa in different places , at different age , different seasons , different adats, different foods , with different crowds , masa single, masa dah berkeluarga sehinggalah bercucu .Tak tau lah berapa peratus dari amalan-amalan ku yang diapprove oleh Yang Mencipta . Subhanallah . Banyaknya peraturan yang telah di langgar kebanyakkanya tak sengaja....no excuse sebab bukanya tak berilmu . Astaghfirullah . Ya Allah ,sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pengampun dan menggemari pengampunan . Ampunilah diriku .
Zaman kanak-kanak dulu , bulan puasa amat seronok . Tang upah puasa cukup tu yang best . Hi hi . Throughout the day we would collect whatever food that would come across our path .......be it biscuits , chewing gum , lollipops or even a guava that we purposely climbed the tree for . By the time azan maghrib dilaungkan macam2 tidbits terhidang bersama2 the rest on Mom's saprah . Masa tu ,which is about 50 years ago ,unfortunately ( or fortunately) bazaar-bazaar Ramadan belum wujud lagi . The varieties of cuisines were all home-cooked .....some by Mak & Atok who used to live with us & yang lain2 tu are from the neighbours or Mak Yah ( one of Mak's older sisters ) which were largely an expected mutual 'trading affair' . In other words we would cook ,with how many neighbours we would like to share a small portion of it with, in mind . Isn't that sweet ....miss that Ramadan ambiance a lot .....alhamdulillah I managed to re-live this today by a micro-scale ( sent a tray to my neighbour a year after I pasang niat in my goal-setting list !...seriously ! siap kene tulis dalam journal lagi! setarap dengan nak tengok Aurora Boreallis....... .subhanallah something which Mak , Atok & Abah buat as part of their daily habit without even thinking about it . Tu lah how lowly our 'silaturrahim' status has deteriotated to zamankini . Crying shame .
The number of dishes on our table hence equal to that of how many households did we share ours with..... ...not that it matters in the particular context . On a more important note was how socially-interwoven the community was then .
Bila nak hantar kat rumah sebelah tadi , siap berbincang2 dengan anak2 ...how how how....Sorang anak siap kata apa mama nak buat ni mama ? Takyah lah, malu je........that's how new the idea is to them comparatively , another siap wish me luck as I ' mengorak langkah keluar dengan penuh bismillah ' . Pulang dengan rasa bangga ...ialah macam dah achieve a goal ( one year punya goal tuhh ). Setiba dirumah , my kid jeritt anxiously ... " Maa ! ada whatsapp from the neighbour ! " Berdebar ni , takut apa yang she nak kata ....ha ha ...teruk betul.... Alhamdulillah ... the message went : " Yay ! Thank you so much . I memang suka your asam pedas . The last time you sent me one , I makan makan & makan banyak " . Whew ....what a relieve....Astaghfirullah .
Should be easier tomorrow insyaAllah .
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