18hb. Ramadan 1435H    10.43am

Bismillah . Dah 18 hari ??  Subhanallah . Baru prasan , I wrote my last entry at the same time 10.43 am he he , not that it is significant or anything like that ....just thrilled . Alhamdulillah , tercapai jugak hasrat nak berbuka puasa dirumah Abah . We made an impromptu decision on last Monday , arrived in time for the ' iftaar ' . There was so much food in Abah's fridge ....puas makan durian-durian which he tak tau datangnya dari mana . Sepanjang bulan puasa ni teringin sangat nak medjoul ( & durian ) ....semua dapat sekali harung dengan termakbulnya the desire to visit my father . It' s the 1st Ramadan without Mak ....the house ( especially the kitchen) felt awkwardly sombre . He tried and we tried too . to preserve the usual buka-time atmosphere .....nowhere close to it . ... sob sob .

Biasalah bila dah duduk berhadap dimeja makan dengan my papa macam2 topic boleh keluar . Unlike the usual sembang2 kali ni it all revolved around mom's matters , like pemasangan kepuk for mom's pusara , hukum baca tahlil beramai2 , sedeqah fatihah untuk orang yang dah pergi ....and what he wanted us to do with him the following day ....a long list to be accomplished before we head home to the city .....potong pokok pelam , trim pokok manggis , jolok ciku , pelam , ziarah kubur his mom , his dad , step-dad and drop by at a cousin's place . Kesianya , wished we could spend more time . ......